Let's Give This Another Shot

Hi Friends,

I know its been several months since I posted on this blog. For several reasons really. First, I stopped right at the time I was heading to Mexico - at Thanksgiving. And as you can imagine, when we came home, we were thick in the middle of getting ready for Christmas. With work, the holidays and a 2-year old, I just found I couldn't bring myself to blog. Whether it was lack of time, or lack of inspiration, my lack of enthusiasm was not something I wanted to share with you all.

And that really is what it boiled down to - lack of results to report.

After so many months of working really hard at the gym, and trying new things to lose weight, nothing was happening. I'm like those folks you see on tv, who tell you they've tried everything and then they reveal the magic potion that transformed their lives. Except I haven't found that magic potion yet. So, I lost the spark to sit here and bla-bla-bla about it.

And today I'll be honest, I'm not sure that spark is back. I'm still feeling fat. I'm still unhappy with how I look. And I still have all that little clothing in the closet that I refuse to part with.

So while I have lost some passion for my journey to hotness (which has turned out to be more like the road to nowhere), I haven't given up. I know the corner to turn is out there, somewhere.

Coming back to the blog and reading last year's posts really made me feel better about everything I have done this past year. I've been at the gym relentlessly. Even through my hiatus here I continued to exercise. I've made a lot of friends at the gym, who I enjoy commiserating with each day. So while the pounds are not falling off, I do know that my fitness level is good. I can hang with the best of them, in the most intense classes. And recently I went to the doctor and my cholesterol level was only 161. (I'll post about the doc visit at another time.)

So, I think its time to get back on this horse, and give my blog another shot. I do believe this accountability has helped me. And if nothing else, it provides an outlet for us all to vent. Weight loss sucks - why not have a place to shout it from the rooftop!